I'm sick.

Boo you whore.
michkyxx

So one of my new deviations is a new song that I wrote, called "Please Stay."
It's a rather depressing song.
Which isn't a surprise, because it's about depression, someone talking to, or at, or about - take your pick - someone who's depressed &that person wanting to let them know that they're always there for them &they're pleading for them to know that, pleading for that person not to do anything rash. I guess it can be implied that the depressed person's so far down into depression it's unlikely they realise the support they have, hence the pleading.
Pretty sure the only reason I added the very, very faint glimmer of hope there was so that it wouldn't be completely &utterly depressing which would mean people would say "emo." &to follow that, "Trust you to do that."
I wrote that song in two nights.
That's not really a long time to write a full 6min song.
I worry a bit that I thought of that particular concept &elaborated that much in that short period of time.
Hmm.

In other news, exam week coming up.
Obviously absolutely no relation to "Please Stay."
*cough*
Really quite worried about these exams. I can't afford to mess up any of them. &I've already messed up French.
&it's not so much about my benefit, more like if I get a bad result on any of these exams, les parentals will miurder me &I'll be made a hermit until November 21st without a thought.
That might not seem so bad given it IS Yr12 &I should be voluntarily doing that anyway, but I can't handle that whole self-recluse concept. It's too dreary. And I don't much like being only with myself for long periods of time.

Oh, and happy winter.
michxx

1. I hate Chem pracs &can't write them to save my life.
2. My piano exam is in about a month... &I haven't had a lesson in a month. I've practiced maybe three or four times in that month. I am screwed.
3. My songs are slowly getting better, but they're still quite crap. Finished one more, will upload lyrics eventually.
4. Excitement &lanning my London trip with Gab will be one of the few things that will get me through the next 7months of my life. We're going to go to Paris for a weekend &Sweden &Spain throughout the month bwahhahah. Still looking for cheap flights, we'll probably have to go to a travel agency eventually to see if there's any good student deals~? :]
5. Formal is incredibly annoying &I can't wait until it's over.
6. I will most likely end up in Commerce, may do collaborative law... divorced couples heh. Watch them bitch about each other.
7. I have very, very, VERY little chance of getting 45 NENTER &am doubting my chances of getting the 41 I want.
8. I'm fucked for parent teacher interviews.
9. I digress incredibly easy &have a terrible attention span;; I can't focus on the one thing for more than like 15mins unless I'm REALLY into it.
10. I am currently fearing my parents may experience last-child syndrome... where they'll clutch onto me &won't want to let me go anywhere because I'll be the last one living at home.
11. Having stress-or-anxiety-or-something-psychological-&-school-related-induced issues with food at the moment. Nothing anorexic, just something wrong with my tummy, can't eat a lot, food makes me feel nauseous at the moment =/
12. Am becoming more intolerant towards religion &I don't know why.

michxx

My dA suddenly works again on my laptop.
I have a back-up dress &another potential dress that I may wear for formal should my dear Asian mother be willing enough to fork out $80.
I have a date. I think. The boy must check with the gf.

Progress reports made mumsy &daddy quite cranky &mumsy tried to ground me today but I ended up going out anyway. Am going to have to work hard to be able to go out Sunday though &sleepover >.> Don't like being locked up.

Am definitely going to have to study lots too =[ *sigh* Death to school.

michxx

For some reason, I can't get into dA on any of the computers at home, only when I'm at school.
&I get holidays from Thursday for about two &a half weeks.
YAY FOR HOLIDAYS.
About to die from school so holidays is good huzzah.
Mind you, already dying from heat =[
But byebye dA for 2wks.
There'll probably be about 50 deviations when I check it after holidays >.>
Shite, still trying to find a better dress than I already have. Though I spose if I just really cbf getting another dress, I'll just wear the green one I have ^^"
michxx